lost and lonley              Reply to this Comment

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I am a 14 year old girl who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder earlier last year. At first we tried 2 or 3 medicines that messed me up real bad and now I am on lithium, 600 mg a day. They keep upping the dosage and it slows me down more and more every time. I ha ve been addicted to prescription drugs and on pot in recent years and I am starting again. My temper is raging and I hate everything in this world most of the time. I can't explain all of my feelings. but I have asked my mom to get me some better help and if it takes putting me in a hospital, whatever. But she hasn't even called anywhere. I feel like running away. Does anyone else know how I feel?

Rivers              Reply to this Comment

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My daughter has bi-polar and sometimes she feels the same way. The medication does slow her down and she doesn't like that because most people don't want to be slowed down. I can't blame her. However, you probably know that not taking the medicine can be worst. The help she is getting is terrible and I have tried everything I can (including putting her in the hospital) but because she doesn't have insurance there isn't much anyone seems to be able to do. I don't know your situation but your mom might feel the same way I do (helpless). If your in RI maybe you can call RI Hospital. 444-3937 It maybe better if you ask for help yourself. Good luck!

Yvonne              Reply to this Comment

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Its comforting to know I'm not alone. I am in OH and I am doing research about centers and hospitals I may be able to go to. I really, really, really want to get better and I am at my wits end. I just don't want anyone to think I'm crazy for wanting to find help within a hospital or something, because TRUST ME, I don't want to, but I'm scared so what else do I do? Thank you for your support.

Yvonne              Reply to this Comment

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Its comforting to know I'm not alone. I am in OH and I am doing research about centers and hospitals I may be able to go to. I really, really, really want to get better and I am at my wits end. I just don't want anyone to think I'm crazy for wanting to find help within a hospital or something, because TRUST ME, I don't want to, but I'm scared so what else do I do? Thank you for your support.

Rivers              Reply to this Comment

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Hi Rivers, Not real sure that you will get this but I wanted to let you know I know how you feel and there is hope. I am 42 now and was dx'd as BP about 4 years ago. I was in a very bad place. I had been an addict of all kinds of drugs for most of my life. I sought help because I thought they were causing my problems primarily. I found that I was self medicating to try and mask my illness which is common. I have gotten the help I sought and am taking meds for my BP and no longer feel the need to use drugs. I hope that you see there is people that will help and that you can live without illegal drugs to control these symptoms. things will get better. they might have to adjust your meds or even change them but believe me it is worth the time to ask or tell the docs about your feelings and what any of the meds are doing to you or how YOU think that they may or not be helping. they will find the right mix. Good luck to you.

Bipolar Disorder              Reply to this Comment

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Sometimes I think this disorder is driving me to the edge. My emotions..moods..feelings..everything is so out of wack...I'm even on meds for this and I can't even remember to take my meds...life has to get better...right?

rhonda              Reply to this Comment

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i know how u feel about not remembering the meds. i do it alot. i had this for yrs. but was diagnosed in 95. the hospital i finally got help at was john hopkins in balti.md. i owe my life to them, along with my family. if u have to write notes to remind yourself, do that it sure helped me. good luck

do i have manic depression?              Reply to this Comment

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here's the thing. when i'm happy i'm happy when i'm pissed i explode i say mean hateful things and want to lash out and just do everything destructive to whoever it is that i'm mad at.... i want help. its wrecking my relationship i need this to stop someone please help me... if you want to email me its wolfluver868@yahoo.com

bipolar disorder              Reply to this Comment

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i was the victim of childhood abuse..very severe, parents never got me help for anything so shortly after my first daughter was born at 17 i found help on my own..took 4 years until i was diagnosed..took many many different meds over the years..im 27 now and stopped my meds about 3 months ago, i couldnt' take the side effects anymore and every day is a battle, one minute i want to die the next im on top of the world, its taken its toll on me and my children. i will call my dr tomorrow to get an appointment to try the meds again, i love my children but keep thinking they will be much happier without me yelling one minute and hugging them the next its so confusing for them..they are 6 and 9..my 9 year old has also been diagnosed and is taking risperdal. times are tough, just gotta keep hanging in there lol maybe this wasnt' the place to post this and if it wasn't i apologize, just needed to talk about it, i have no one here

bipolar disorder              Reply to this Comment

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i was the victim of childhood abuse..very severe, parents never got me help for anything so shortly after my first daughter was born at 17 i found help on my own..took 4 years until i was diagnosed..took many many different meds over the years..im 27 now and stopped my meds about 3 months ago, i couldnt' take the side effects anymore and every day is a battle, one minute i want to die the next im on top of the world, its taken its toll on me and my children. i will call my dr tomorrow to get an appointment to try the meds again, i love my children but keep thinking they will be much happier without me yelling one minute and hugging them the next its so confusing for them..they are 6 and 9..my 9 year old has also been diagnosed and is taking risperdal. times are tough, just gotta keep hanging in there lol maybe this wasnt' the place to post this and if it wasn't i apologize, just needed to talk about it, i have no one here

just get help              Reply to this Comment

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Hi, I am 14 and manic-depressive. I was just hospitalized a week ago and got out today. It was very scary and everything, but if you go to the right hospital, THEY WILL HELP YOU. My meds needed to be stabilized and everythng and now, I actually feel normal again. It isn't yor fault so don't be ashamed to ask for help. I did it and I'm a teenager. I was planning on hanging myself the day before I went in and they saved me. Just be brave, you can do it. Good luck.

His Bright Light              Reply to this Comment

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His Bright Light is a book written by Danielle Steel and it is a very, very touching book. It is about her son Nick Traina who was diagnosed with manic-depression in his teens and killed himself when he was 19. She shares her story and it was the one thing that steered me in the direction to get help. I read the book and cried like a baby,but I realized that I may have a problem. I highly recommend it for anyone having a hard time coping with their illness or loves someone with bipolar. Seriously. Read it. Thanks.

sisters              Reply to this Comment

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My sister is here, how do u get put here?

lil sis              Reply to this Comment

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my lil sis has been diagnosed w/ manic depression & bi-polar. She lost her home and everything and her job to Hurricane Katrina. She needs help. She can't afford it. No insurance. She breaks everything in sight, yells things she will regret in hours, crys and crys non stop, verbaly abusive to everyone she loves and everyone who loves her. She is ruining every relationship she has w/ friends and family. Its not her fault, but it hurts her and my family. We are exhausted, her, myself, and family and friends. Where can we find financial assistance?

Bi-polar Children              Reply to this Comment

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I have custody of a friend's 9yr girl (I've had her since she was 7mo). Approx 3 yrs ago she was diagnosed w/OCD and an Outburst disorder. Over the yrs she had been on a variety of meds and seeing a therapist. Recently her behavior became so erratic that I took her to a new therapist who refered her to a psychiatrist, imagine my suprise to find that she had been mis-diagnosed - she is bi-polar. We are now trying to find a med that will work for her. Anyone know of a support group to help me deal with her mood swings and outburst? I love her like my own, but I'm almost to the point of "throwing in the towel". You can email me at notyourmomma62@yahoo.com.

bi-polar /adhd              Reply to this Comment

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My sister was diagonsed with bipolar/adhd when she was young and always had problems growing up on school and just all around and then she was addited to heroin for many years and now i think she might really want to change, and i was wondering if anyone would know a good place to go in nj or md, but not for drugs just for the other problems and where we could get prescription asst, because as anoyone who reads this knows that it is very expensive , when u have no insurance. any help would be greatly appricated......thanks

it is scary              Reply to this Comment

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well i have been diagnosed with bi-polarness for about a year. i cant seem to get my meds right. i really want something that can help me but nothing seems to work. everytime we think that something is going to do good, it just does the same things all the other ones do. i do really well while i am on my meds for about a week. then i will do something stupid.. but i cant seem to help myself.. then i get into huge trouble. i have been institutionalized twice and my dad just got really mad at me and it looks like i am going again.. i dont know what to do.

I don't know              Reply to this Comment

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I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 2 years ago and for as long as I can remember it has a been a roller coaster ride for me. The meds, the doctors, the f*** ups, the hospital stays...I feel like its running my life and I can't get a grip. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm only 15 and I feel like ending my life. Again.

bi-polar disease              Reply to this Comment

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Hi everyone, I just wanted to say that I am very happy to hear that you all are doing things to help you with your illness. I have a BPD sister who is ruining the lives of everyone in our family. Her rages, her horrible nasty outbursts, her unreal view of her world is awful and painful to all of us. I wish she had the courage to try meds, to seek a therapist and to try to change her life for the better. I hope your family members are appreciating your efforts.