suicidal              Reply to this Comment

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i need to get out of the environment that I'm in because the things going on are leading to me into a depression, violent rages and acts, and sometimes suicidal thoughts.

depreession              Reply to this Comment

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im very depressed, if that's what you want to call it. I don't know what to do. I was using drugs for the past 4 years and my life is so different now because I have been clean for over 2 months. The first month of my recovery I was feeling noremal. Now everyday I feel like I don't want to live anymore and get this horrible feeling. I feel like I'm having a bad high all day. I cant live with this feeling anymore. I just wanted to know if there is anyone out there that has the same feeling as me. I'm also very scared to do anything. I can't walk into a deli and order something to eat, and I hate going outside. I'm isolating myself from the whole world. I'm on anti depressents but there not working. If anyone feels this way please reply to this message... I need to know that there is someone else that is feeling this way because I feel like im so alone. Thanks

depression              Reply to this Comment

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Sweet pea you arent alone. I have two jobs, three kids, a hubby in Iraq, bills out my eyeballs, and one of the children is a teen, former gang member, recovering addict/alcoholic, rape victim (at age 11 by 4 grown men) that is pregnant and about to deliver, another child that is a teen and trying to battle the peer pressure to do drugs for the first time, surrounded by unsupportive school staff that believes that we only built the school so they can earn a paycheck and doesnt see his need for support and encouragement so now he is failing, and a preteen that is falling dangerously close to the numerous gang seductions in this "6th best place to live in TX", is dyslexic without assistance because of time and staff constraints, an ex hubby that is consistent in only failing to provide support for the children and harrassment of MY children, and the list goes on and on. I had to laugh when I proofread the previous sentences to refrain from crying. All I can say sweetie is to keep plugging on. As a clean for 19 years, former call girl/dancer, I can say that it gets easier- not better maybe but easier- to get thru the day and realize that you are here to accomplish something big, lest you'd not be put in this place you are at. Antidepressants will help once you have found the right one. So many choices because they all work differently for different people. Find a doctor that cares for you, not your money. You can tell by how willing they are to take payments:) Keep posting if that is what got you thru the moment. Be sure to MAKE yourself believe that depression is not a luxury you can afford yourself. Turn on every light in the house and take a shower. Put on your makeup. AND GO OUTSIDE! MAKE YOURSELF NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS! Tell yourself you are beautiful and get after it! I hope you feel my prayers for your dear heart and never give up! God bless and keep you.

Depression              Reply to this Comment

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I need help. I'm depressed and I don't know why.. I find myself crying randomly. I feel so empty and alone. I used to cut myself when I was a preteen, and think about it all the time now. I need somebody to talk to but can't bring myself to burden my family or friends by telling them how I really feel. I feel useless.

depression              Reply to this Comment

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I had depression when I was 12 until I turned 14 and I cut myself. I have one scar that was so deep I needed stitches, but I never got any. it is a daily reminder of how sad i was. Last October it came back. I'm 16 now. I read these and some things that ur saying is such a part of my daily routine that it surprises me how bad it really is. Like suicidal thoughts. I see myself dieing sometimes hundreds of times a day. I cry again. That's annoying as hell. Pretty much everything that shouldn't matter does to me. All my friends have left for various reasons, none have to do with me, but this leaves me completely alone. I don't know what to do anymore. I hate it so much. No one will help me and I don't know what I did to deserve this. Looking at my life it looks so perfect, great family, great boyfriend, I'm "attractive" and I hate not being able to enjoy any of it. No wonder I want to die so badly.

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I don't think typing this post will make me feel any better but it's worth a shot, I suppose. I am 16 years old and I am terribly depressed. I feel no one cares about me and I'd be better off dead. I'm constantly crying and thinking of suicide. My mother, this pas year, just had her 3rd unsuccessful suicide attempt and now I live with a friend because my father is too consumed in his new rich and exciting life and family. Everyone was too busy when I got raped a month after my 15th birthday. Everyone's too busy to see how hard I work in school and to just wake up and stay on this planet today. And when I am sad or feeling upset the best thing my family could say to me was, "gee we don't get to see you much, stop being such a miserable bitch." Comforting, no?